UNCALLED FOR

It was the night of Palm Sunday; I just came from a church service when I received an unexpected call from an unexpected person. I was too hurt with everything I learned from the caller. I didn’t know how to handle the pain inside me and I thought where I had gone wrong.

Earlier that day, while I was in the mass, I was crying at the priest’s homily. I was bucketing out all my emotions to God praying and asking for him to show the answers to all my WHY’s; the causes of my worries and anxieties. Truly that night, everything was revealed to me. It was so uncalled for. I wasn’t ready but it was given to me. Ironically, that was something I should be grateful about.

It was a call that will bring massive changes in my life. I faced the Holy Week filled with mourning. Literally, I felt God’s passion on the cross. I felt like as if it was me being persecuted and killed. Days passed and the pain still lingers. I was praying so hard for Him to give me the enough strength and to guide me with all my thoughts, plans, and decisions. It was a call that indeed measured my faith and values in life. I know what is right and wrong but it was so hard to accept what is right. The truth hurts but it also sets you free. Until this day, I am praying for the much needed strength that only He can provide. Likewise, I am very thankful to all my friends who give me unwavering support and advice.

There are so many calls in life that we often ignored and rejected; calls that need most of our attention and actions. We never wanted to hear or answer them, the so called ‘wake-up’ calls, because of FEARS and RESENTMENTS. But there are calls that we couldn’t avoid no matter how much we try to hid ourselves. There are calls that will somehow strike our very heart that even if they hurt so much; we are left with no choice but to accept them.