Hardened Not

I received a bad news...a really bad news. Every one who will receive such thing will really be crying his heart out! The problem is I didn't.

I asked myself, Am I bad? Am I hardened? These questions were stuck in my head because that's how I really felt about myself.

Why couldn't I feel anything? I need to cry and it just won't come out.

Then all of the sudden these words came into head as if an angel whispered every word to my ears...

"If I can't take the big blows, then I am not ready to take the BIG LEAP of my life."

Yes... I am well shaped by all the trials I had been through all these years. Not that I am hardened or I don't have feelings anymore or I don't care at all. It is just I am very confident that God is with me and I am sure that He will never give me anything that I cannot bear.

I am stronger NOT hardened. I am more open to life's challenges and I am more trusting to God.

And you know what? Just as we taught God leaves or abandons us, He didn't... He is giving the best cheers that encourage us to move on...life goes on and there's no turning back. We may give up on Him for times we are tested but He never did... Not now, not ever!


God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. - Psalm 46:1 (NIV)