Moving On

The wonder of getting hurt is having survived it (that’s one lesson I learned in my life). A lot of times we experience moments when even smiling was extremely impossible. We are exasperated with a lot of things… in work, family, finances, etc. We are emotionally bothered and our relationship with others messed up. These circumstances hurt us. But one chief reason why people get hurt is when they are being hurt with people they loved and trusted most.

"Sometimes, you can’t stop yourself from hoping for yesterday to come back especially when yesterday was the only future you ever wanted and needed from the start."

I realized that the one person you loved the most, will unexpectedly turns out to be the greatest stranger you have met!

When I was terribly broken hearted (2 years ago?), I thought the feeling of despair will never end. Everyday I forced myself to function as normal as possible. Well, that was too hard… imagine, I was smiling in front of other people but I have to rushed somewhere private and hide my crying. They never felt or seen any single trace that I was going through depression that time, although they were noticing how my weight suddenly dropped. I just told them that I was into diet (nah, I never did that actually)! For me, mornings were for work then evenings were for my mourning! I remember how I wanted the time to move fast. All I wanted is to finish my work and get home so I could cry and cry and cry! It was the hardest time of my life, but as I constantly been saying, ‘toughest and yet the most rewarding’ time of my life!


Looking back, I realized how much I have changed all because of the hurtful past that I’ve experienced, gone through, and endured. Looking back, I couldn’t help smiling at myself and feel happy because God has never failed me. He was the only refuge, listener, comforter, friend (sometimes I argue with Him too) I had that time!


"Moving on is not about “never looking back”, it’s taking a glance at yesterday and noticing how much you’ve grown since then."


I’ve learned to accept and appreciate the past even if it was too painful because it taught me to be a better and stronger person. I became a person who is more than willing to love without fears and hesitations.


"Sometimes love makes a big scar in your heart, but don’t let it stain your life. It only means the bigger scar you had, the better you’ve loved."


When I see people suffer from loss and pain, I can feel their pain. I know it will take time to heal and finally achieve acceptance and the process is definitely worthwhile! In my experience, the road to healing is the most wonderful part!


"Wonder why sunset is a lot colorful than the sunrise? That’s one of the ironies of life, there is “good” in goodbyes! "


Honestly, sometimes I can still remember the pain and sometimes I still cry but I am not hurting anymore. The cry is a lot lighter now. I always believe that LOVE not time heals all wounds… and love has healed me. I felt first and foremost, God’s love, my friends and family’s love, and not the least; I felt my love for myself! Those LOVE healed me! And before I knew it, God rewarded me with more… He sent Joel’s love to me! Now, isn’t it worth moving on?


"When you can’t remember why you’re hurt, that’s when you are healed."