The Struggle of A Lost

We are faced with so much struggles in life that we feel confused and lost. We suddenly become out of focus and deal with the problem itself than ourselves.

Yesterday, May 22, a very dear friend of mine (Lhoraine) had her left thyroid operated. I prayed so dearly to God for her and for the doctors who will perform the operation. I knew how she felt the night before the operation, the fear of not being awake after the procedure. I told her not to worry and rest assured that when she wakes up, it’s going to be a brand new life for her. I remembered her telling me once, “Nay, kaya ko yan!” (Ma, I can make it). Her strong conviction was so moving! Only those with a great heart and faith can really have that strong confidence to live!

Lhoraine had the operation at 6 in the morning. I woke up that same day and time to say a prayer for her through the intercession of St. Jude. Later that afternoon, Lhoraine sent me a message telling me she is fine and she could feel my prayers for her. I felt relieved and thankful to God for a successful procedure!

Also, yesterday, I visited a friend suffering from an ovarian cancer. It was timely that she was receiving the Holy Communion when I arrived in her house. I wanted to cry for her but it was‘nonsense’ to do because she was very calm and composed. She is very beautiful more than ever. She looked perfectly fine although I could see in her eyes what’s deep inside her! I could see the courage in her, the will to fight and the sense of hope! She told me that once her chemotherapy is over, she will join us again in our activities. I admire her for having a positive attitude despite of the adversity she is dealing right now!

When I got home, I thought of these wonderful persons. I felt sorry, not for them, but for myself! I was struggling with my own problems, feeling low about myself, and being too overwhelmed about the future. But these people are dealing with their lives one day at a time. Ever grateful each day for having a new day, a new life, a new chance, and new blessings! While, I suffered for my own troubles and trapped with the hurts of the past.

That night, I thanked God for allowing me to see these people who inspired me a lot! I read from one of my inspirational books, “thank God at all times and in all circumstances!” I asked for His forgiveness for feeling too low and for pressing myself down, hard enough, that I sometimes fail to recognize the blessings He has been giving me each day. I knew I have the faith but I didn’t live the faith in me. Now, I realized that my greatest enemy is myself.

It was hard to struggle and be lost in the process but thanks God for these people who motivate me and moved me in so many ways; how they value life and their immense faith which until this point keep them living and shining! Truly, God send people to touch our lives!